phone calls put me on the alert now.
not really jumpy.
serious.
sober and silent.
something in my world is off.
it comes in waves: a barrage of conflicting emotions.
so many memories.
so many years.
a life of history together.
regret for overdue visits, lost intimacy.
sorrow.
and the official closing of a chapter in life.
smiles. –What grand times we had!
Connection. A bond we shared with no one else.
none of those memories will ever be the same.
they are scarred by the knowledge of loss.
something’s missing.
how can the rest of the world not feel it?
don’t they know something’s wrong?
a “tremor in the Force,” as our families would joke.
someone has gone.
do the angels feel the tremor, too–
that someone has arrived?
we are left in a baffling mix of pain and praise.
an old friend is dead.
father of my dearest childhood friends
husband to the sweetest woman with the biggest west-Texas accent
my own father’s best friend for many years.
the man who baptized me.
This morning Robert St.Clair went home suddenly to be with his Lord.
PennyDaisy 
Oh Sara, I’m sorry. I’m so, so sorry.My prayers are with you, your family, and the St. Clair’s. It’s good to know that he is home now, though, where he has always belonged. This knowledge doesn’t take the pain away, but there is hope.You will see him and laugh with him again. I love you.
sorry for your loss sara
Your post is perfect. It speaks words that are locked in my heart and unable to get out. Thank you.
If you have a good imagination you can catch the kiss and hug that I am blowing your way.
Bless your heart. I’ll be praying for you and the family. Love, Dot
It is so hard to share someone’s sorrow. Sometimes the only comfort comes from Our Lord. I am sorry that someone so precious to you cannot journey through this life with all of you and especially with his family any longer.
I’m sorry, Sara. Your post is so moving.
Oh Sara! I am so sorry. My prayers are with you and yours.
Because in many cases, it requires their cooperation. Which they refuse to give. Otherwise, I make a habit of proving people wrong, but they never change.