ever been convicted by a children’s song video?
“here are my hands, let them serve…“
i don’t want to serve.
i’d rather be selfish.
i’m not even serving somewhere amazing,
like an orphanage in Mexico or a village in Africa!
it’s just my family,
ordinary people, and i’m in an ordinary life.
day after day, year after year,
the same thing over and over
only harder as people grow up and move
from cute, fun babies to annoying kids and teenagers.
i want off this life!!
i feel like saying, like Moses,
“Lord, couldn’t you send someone else?”
Moses was slow of speech,
i am weak of limb…and spirit, too, apparently.
half the time i feel like a first-class wimp.
unfortunately, i can also be a bit of a whiner.
yet there it is again…that Voice.
“Follow Me.”
and the realization that i call Him “my Lord.”
not just “Lord”, but “my Lord”
how can i say anything but
“Here are my hands, let them serve.
Let my mouth speak Your words.“
[even when i don’t know what You’re doing.]
PennyDaisy 
Everyone has their own way to serve. The need was big enough that God made you specifically to meet it. It’s not unimportant just because you think it’s routine. Then again, people sometimes get reassigned.
I agree, Jordan. God wants everyone to serve, but not all in the same way. Indeed, how would all the many pressing tasks for His kingdom get accomplished if we all choose the same capacity in which to serve? That’s why we don’t choose- as hard as it is – but rather God chooses for us. I refuse to believe, however, that God always puts us in serving capacities that we find very routine and that we must constantly fight to enjoy. I believe that he has planned adventure, intimacy and beauty for our lives, as Disney as that may sound. I know there’s something more, and I won’t let dreary, dull days steal that from me. Have you ever read The Sacred Romance? It’s very good and I think it speaks directly to your situation, as it did to mine. I cried when I read the first chapter, and the second…
AMEN
I’ve wept at the watching of children’s videos! There’s one, of Jesus healing a little boy…that I simply cannot watch without losing it. It challenges my faith every time I see it!
I understand your thoughts, and the conviction of learning to simply seek His Will, and to follow Him, wherever that leads, and let that be sufficient. I think we tend to de-value the familiar, and give greater value to what is not familiar, as if the unfamiliar to us is somehow more important to God. That which is right in front of us, and very familiar to us, is just as important to God as the exotic unfamiliar. Remember, those people we think of as exotic…are ordinary to themselves. What if they are sitting over there in Africa or Mexico, thinking you and your family are more important to God than they are, because to them, you are the one who is unfamiliar and exotic? What would you tell them? Whatever you would say to them, you can apply to yourself.
thank you, my sister… i needed this right now.
I have realized of late, that if I want to be used by God is some ministry or outreach I need to develop a servant’s heart at home. It’s not always the first thing on my mind and deffinetely not always what I want to do. These sorts of revelations call for much prayer and a willing heart I think.