opening my eyes

Because of the way I was raised, it’s crazy to me to think of racism still being an issue in our society today. It almost never crosses my mind.  For real.  Unless someone brings it up, says something in a hushed tone that startles me into realizing they’re working hard not to be offensive to someone who might overhear, or points out a news story, I don’t even think about it.  Race is such a n0n-issue for me when it comes to interacting with others, unless we’re talking cultural differences, which then are a must for discussion because they’re just plain cool and fun.

Not that I’m innocent of judging by appearances–oh, no!  But that’s about a person’s general kemptness or attractiveness. In my family we tend only to look at a person’s skin color as a matter of interest and perhaps to glory in the differences God interjected in the human race. Like the way we look at my pale skin with freckles compared to my sister’s lovely olive completion: neither is better or worse, just different. Unique.

But lately I have begun to see a need to acknowledge the unfairness and injustices that others in this world–even in this country–face daily. Just because I am blessed to have been raised without racial prejudice, doesn’t mean there is peace on this front.

May it please God to always keep my heart without bias (except for Texans and the Scotch-Irish, Lord), and to increase my compassion for those affected by the evil that will rule this world until Jesus returns!  And Lord, give me compassion for those who, through ignorance or ill will, spread this disease of hatred towards their fellow man.  Let me stand for the truth with a loving, patient, and immovable spirit.

Lord, come quickly!

early-mornin’ singin’ song

Already a full day and it’s only noon.  Ish.  Later by the time I finish this post.

Up at 5am to get to the blueberry farm right when they opened!  (They’ve been running out by late Saturday.)  And some of us didn’t get any real sleep until almost 2 o’clock this morning.  Breakfast tacos on the way up, donuts and coffee on the way back as a reward for our hard work.  (So thoroughly sick of sweets now.)  Very, VERY glad we only had to park half-a-mile away; we saw some people nearly two miles out.  That’s a long walk to go pick blueberries, especially with little ones.  Sixteen pounds of berries, and nearly as much dirt on our feet.  And I shook twigs and leaves out of my hair when we got home.  We literally climbed into bushes, but we did find some of the better berries.  (Note to self: wear a baseball cap next time; will also solve the getting tangled in bushes issue.)   I’m a better blueberry-picker than I was last year, happily.  I realized there are different techniques for find the best of each different variety (different shaped bushes).  But they weren’t kidding when they said it’d been a rough season–much harder to find the ripe ones than last year.

Best moment: Sam entertaining us on the way home by singing Taylor Swift & Selena Gomez songs with a King Julian (Madagascar) accent.  Don’t ask me how she knows these songs, but it’s worth her learning all the words just to be able to do this.  I laughed till I cried– and I was never more grateful for stop-and-go traffic in my life.  I thought I’d never get my face unstuck.  And she just wouldn’t stop!  Trying to imagine what we must have looked like.  Five girls crammed in my Corolla, shrieking with laughter every few seconds when she hit the really funny parts.

Also, you don’t fully realize how nonsensical pop lyrics are until they are done with that voice.  They really are that dumb.

Now for the second part of this very long day: celebrating the birthday of a dear friend with our traditional visit to the beach and the Strand.  SO worth not taking a nap!

last year's blueberry special
last year’s blueberry special

the theater of life

Last night I went to my favorite theater to see Malcolm & Teresa.  I missed my chance to use my last usher pass before it expired so she let me be an extra usher.  It was a new experience for me, going up by myself, not knowing anyone there, except a few of the actors themselves.  I felt very grown up and half-way lost.  Why is it I can be bold when someone else comes with me, but I’m shy when I’m alone?

“The play is the thing–“, and it was.

Riveting.  Gripping.  Sad.  Victorious.  Thoughtful.  I barely moved through two acts, trying to catch each word.

Amazing that circumstances from 60 and 80 years ago can seem like exactly what we deal with now.  And, as Christy pointed out, it’s amazing that no one really knows about the genocide in the Ukraine at the hand of Stalin, and yet nearly as many people died there as in the Holocaust.

Two of my favorite lines, both of them from Malcolm Muggeridge to Mother Teresa:

“…instead of changing the world, the Church has come to terms with it.”

“[The intellectuals] think men are perfect.  They think that if you educate a man, he will become good.”

As I listened to the question & answer session, all I could think was ‘There is nothing new under the sun…’  Part of me is nervous about this, until I remember the sovereignty of my God.

May the peace of God reign in your hearts…

the view from here

Learning to love Jesus whole-heartedly.  Learning new things every day about brain development as I help children with Downs syndrome.  Attempting dignity and grace in the way I present myself.  Keeping up with ideas, keeping track of thoughts.  Showing off what God does all around me.

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is this goodbye?

It was many years to live…

was it a good life?

 

Was your heart ever touched by God?

Did you love her once upon a time?  Did you still?

Did you stand in awe of sunsets the way I do?

Did I inherit my patriotic heart from you?

Or my love of the rugged outdoors, shooting guns, cold weather, the moon, the ocean?

Is there any part of you in me?

Who were you?

 

I wish someone could tell me what you were like as a boy.

I envy the few who had the chance to know you before the war.

Before life closed you up.

I wish I had known your heart.

All my life it was hidden away.

 

 

Mostly…

 

      …mostly I hope that I will see you again.

 

the Lord, He is good.

we made it.
no damage to the house,
no flooding in our neighborhood.
even our trees are fine.

the neighbor lost one of her pines…straight onto our driveway.
we thought something like that might happen,
we just thought it’d go the other way.
we parked our cars in our yard in front of the house
instead of on the driveway.
the pine missed the back of Dad’s car by two inches.
actually the ends of the branches were touching it.
it was pretty exciting–I got to watch it go around 5 am.

right now we’re in Austin with Mom and the little ones.
we decided no a/c in Houston was one adventure we did not want to experience.
it’s amazing how muggy it got as the winds died down Saturday afternoon.

the drive through Houston was equally amazing.
i had no idea wind could do that much damage.
i was out in some of that wind! (yes, we played in the storm…don’t tell the experts.)

according the the news, all of the Texas coastline is devastated.
but there are places where nothing but tree branches and fences went down.
i’m so grateful to God that our neighborhood was one of them.

stacy has some great pictures on her site of Friday preparations.
hopefully she’ll be able to upload some from the actual storm soon.