Life as a dilema…

I guess I keep thinking it’s spring with all this lovely weather we’ve been having.
This is how spring should be.  Ours hits a little fast and get’s warm before you can get out of your sweaters.
Yes, January usually brings gorgeous blue skies for a few glorious weeks.
February…well, “I got the blues” works pretty well most years.

I can’t decide if I’m glad that I’m sick or not.
Yeah, sure, it’s miserable physically, but it makes me slow down and notice the sunshine.
If I was healthy I’d be working up a storm inside and forget to dash out for a minute.
Or, maybe, if I was healthy I would enjoy it more because I’d feel better.
I could get the “Bourne Supremacy” soundtrack on my sister’s MP3 player and go for a run.
I could take my baby sister outside and play and swing and jump on the trampoline.
(As it is, I’m banned from going near her in case I can’t help breathing on her.  The last thing we need is her sick.)

So I’ve been taking slow walks up the street with a different brother every day,
and lazing around on my bed watching the sun change everything into different colors
as I try to read or write so I’ll stay calm and not work myself into a coughing frenzy (dry coughs are the pits).
What I wouldn’t give for enough well-ness to clean the bathroom right now.
It would do both of us a lot of good (me and the bathroom, that is).

I’m rambling.  But my brain is turning to mush in spite of all it’s activity lately.  It needs my body to move, too.
Or maybe I’m just hungry.  I think I forgot to eat today…

I guess I’ll be content wherever I am.  I’ll be glad that God sent
such lovely weather for me to enjoy while I recover, and I’ll pray that
my efforts to keep from getting worse will pay off, and maybe, just
maybe, the skies’ll still be blue when I’m ready to go for that run.

9 thoughts on “Life as a dilema…

  1. And I shall speak that we who are not ill feel blessed and never resentful, in spite of the enviable joys of being too ill to work.Thank you for your patience with me…I guess when I fly off the handle I really don’t fly. I splatter. Love,Stacy

  2. I want you to know, young lady, I woke up sick today. I think I may have caught it over the internet from you…sort of a computer virus? (don’t groan or throw anything at the screen…remember, they cost money)

  3. Yeahh..I’ve had days like that….and I remember marveling at the difference between Houston and Michigan.  Houston:  6 weeks of spring (Jan-ish), and 46 weeks of summer.  Michigan:  6 weeks of spring (July-ish), and 46 weeks of winter.
    I woke up today with my head spinning.  Not like dizzy…but thoughts…spinning in my head like a twister…nothing settling.  I’m just agog at everything spinning around up there like a whirligig.  My first prayer this morning:  Lord, help my head to slow down!!  No…to stop!  Let something land!!
    Those lazy walks sound wonderful, btw.  If the wind would die down, and if I could get David into his wheelchair…it’s warm enough today I might could take one of those my own self….hey…here’s a great idea!…take an extra lazy one for me…ok?  thanks! 

  4. Cool. Well, I just don’t like ‘smiling’ pictures. I mean, if there’s nothing to smile about (a camera?) then it seems sort of cheesy. For me at least. I guess I normally smile more around ya’ll though.
    I can’t see any photos in your photoblog. 😦

  5. Yes, maybe I should be able to see you. What do you want me to do!? Drive all the way down to Houston? . . . Ok.
    It is soooo boring being in my own house…. alone. (except for the crazy old deaf, blind dog, and the huge deaf great dane with a bleeding ankle) Oh yeah, I’m having a blast, just without the blast part.

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